To Be

What jobs have you had?

A simple answer for the day. I have had my share of indecisiveness and commitment issues. I felt my strengths and weaknesses over the years and I appreciate every opportunity in my life.

IT Support

nail technician

Olive Garden server

English ESL teacher for adults at a language school

English TEFL teacher for children online

immigration paralegal

Vietnamese interpreter

business development nonprofit

Chevrolet car salesperson

project manager

I fancy being a small business owner or online shop owner next. What do you think?

Life is too short to stick to one job. Why not try 10.

Jack of all Trades

What are you good at?

Immediate progress excites me. I like collecting skills and hobbies, but never deep into the world.

I love the starting and the doing, unfortunately without my much mindfulness into what I’m doing. Spark fizzles out. This is why I’m scared of committing fully into things. For the longest time I have been insecure about what I’m good at.

What, then, am I good at?

Exactly at what I’m not good at. Starting things. My impulsive tendencies gets me to commit myself and is my way of doing things where I would not otherwise. Because I am the way I am:

  • 6 month Study Abroad
  • 6 month solo travel in SEA
  • 3 month USA roadtrip with Cuong
  • 3 month Central America trip with Cuong
  • Lived in NYC with Cuong
  • Worked as English teacher, Vietnamese interpreter, car salesman, project management, and learned a lot in each world
  • Multiple Europe backpacking trips with Tam and Cuong
  • Lived in Atlanta

Of course, there is room for improvement, delve deeper. Master of some.

Sourdough Banana Bread Saga

On my banana bread journey:

Bread 8: June 22, 2024

  • Bringing this to a banana bread showdown tomorrow.
  • Used the microwave 5 mins and reduced banana liquid technique
  • Very active sourdough
  • 1/4 tsp cinnamon
  • Result: 1.5 hours to finish cooking. Will come back with results

Bread 7: June 15, 2024

  • Adjusted ratios to 3 bananas (all we had left).
  • Used the ratios to sub milk in for sourdough.
  • Result: it didn’t rise as much, but it was really good!! It has good depth in it and is very moist. Compared side by side, sourdough banana bread is better. I would like to work more with this in the future as it takes a lot less time.

Bread 6: June 14, 2024

  • Increased 375g > 575g banana, 3 > 5 bananas
  • Bananas dotted ripe but not black, so probably less sweet
  • Sourdough left out one night and fed almost 2 days to get active
  • Result: took 1.5 hours to finish baking. I put foil on top to prevent yellowing too much. This is the saddest I’ve been in a long time. I was baking with Cuong and wanted to get my bread out of pan quickly so he could use it. I didn’t let it cool for the 20 minutes like I should have. The bread broke apart coming out. So sad. The taste was delicious. VERY MOIST.

Bread 5: baked June 1, 2024

  • Not enough banana: 350g (~ 3 bananas) instead of 375g, so reducing everything else to 93%
  • Sugar 102g instead of 110g + reduce 5% sugar =97g
  • Mix of Vanilla extract (ran out) + Bourbon vanilla
  • Did not sift dry mix to see if I can get away with it, but mixed it thoroughly to make sure baking soda is dispersed.
  • Sourdough not super active.
  • Result: The bread rose very well, moist enough
  • Next time to try: more bananas, less sugar
  • Eventual future to try:
    • Use 1 stick butter (account for higher butter to oil ratio: .5 cup butter is 3/8 cup of oil)
    • Reduce even more sugar, add more banana (~7 bananas)
    • Use yogurt
    • Try airfryer
    • ½ cup chocolate
    • ½ cup raisins
    • 2 tbsps sour cream
    • 350 degrees 30 mins for 2 8in cake pan

Bread 4: baked May 28, 2024

  • Added 100g extra of bananas (change: 375 g to 475 g of bananas).
  • Measured the oil in cups instead on the scale; this cut down about 30ml of oil… oops :).
  • I forgot to sift the flour, so I mixed it more carefully to not have clumps of flour.
  • Lowered heat to 355 F
  • Used bourbon vanilla extract
  • Result: I was worried that it would overflow so I put it in two pans. It was very moist. Tasted sweeter than usual, but my friend Sel said it was the perfect “not too sweet.”
  • Next changes: Lower sugar.
  • Eventual future to try:
    • Use butter (higher butter to oil ratio)
    • Reduce even more sugar, add more banana
    • Use yogurt
    • Try airfryer

Bread 3: baked May 25, 2024

  • Went back to oil, to see if it will be better.
  • I did not mix the oil in enough so it looks crusty on the outside where it crisps up.
  • Left frozen bananas out and it had thawed; I dumped the banana juice out instead of keeping it
  • Will be taking this today to a family potluck! Looking forward to trying it.
  • Result: The bread needed more banana taste, and can be more moist. I expect this is because I didn’t get the banana extract in the mixture. There was oil caked on the outside and the top of the bread was too brown.
  • Next changes:
    • Lower heat
    • Add bananas
    • Mix the banana mixture to better incorporate the oil

Bread 2: baked May 23, 2024

  • Swapped out butter with oil.
  • Not intentional, but I ran out of all purpose flour, so had to buy a batch from Costco.
  • The sourdough was also overrisen.
  • I did not mix the dough enough, so it feels like some parts of the bread is doughie.
  • Result: The bread did not rise as much. It came out drier and doughier than I would have liked, but still quite good. I noted to try to go back to oil in the next bread run to see if it changes anything.
  • Next changes:
    • Make sure banana’s cooked
    • Go back to oil
    • Get sourdough at bubbly timing
    • Remember to take pictures 🙂

Bread 1: baked May 18, 2024

  • Cut recipe sugar in half to get that “not too sweet” compliment from Vietnamese moms.
  • Perfect loaf, rose magnificently.

Recipe in Progress:

Ingredients

  • Butter, for coating the pan
  • 575 g overripe bananas (appx. 2 1/3 cups lightly smashed)
  • 105 g (appx. 2/3 cups of lightly packed) light or dark brown sugar
  • 1½ tsp pure vanilla extract
  • 2 large eggs
  • 100 g (appx. 1/2 cup) bubbly, active sourdough starter (without sourdough: Increase the milk to 125 ml (1/2 cup) total.)
  • 250g (2 cups) all-purpose flour
  • 1½ tsp baking soda
  • 1/4 tsp fine sea salt
  • 125ml (1/2 cup) canola oil
  • 60ml (1/4 cup) milk

Instructions

  1. Preheat the oven to 360 F.
  2. Lightly coat a 9×5-inch loaf pan with butter.
  3. Add the bananas, sugar, and vanilla to a bowl. Cream with hand whisk (some small lumps of banana are okay).
  4. Add the eggs, one at a time until fully incorporated. Add the sourdough starter.
  5. Sift the flour, baking soda, and salt together in a separate bowl. Working in batches, add this to the banana mixture.
  6. Add the milk and oil and mix until just combined. Do not over do it; the banana bread will be tough.
  7. Pour the batter into the prepared pan(s). Transfer to the oven.
  8. Bake 60- 65 minutes (for the standard 9×5-inch pan), until rich golden brown and a toothpick comes out clean. Cover with foil if the loaf browns too quickly.
  9. Cool in the pan for 20 minutes, and then transfer to a wire rack to cool completely.

A Stitch in Time

It is incredible to see how time has flown. My first embroidery gifted to my mom for her birthday. I started this project Fall of 2023. It is finally completed Spring of 2024.

When looking at the picture I feel that I can always go home, because my mom will be there.

As time passes, I think of how many more days will I get to come back to visit my mom. How many days have I prioritized coming home. These are little reminders that tell me that home is where my loved ones are. I will be home again soon. One day soon.

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